Thursday, December 31, 2009

you're hot then you're cold...




I just love this song for now!

Ya lagunya emang agak nyindir seseorang yang moodnya berosilasi dan indecisive sih (hmmm, siapa ya?) tapi lumayan lah, buat joget joget abis mandi pagi hehehe...

Oh iya, tahun baru gw mau pergi ke Bandung sama sodara-sodara gw, so..

MET TAHUN BARU SEMUANYA :)

Monday, December 28, 2009

holidaaaayyy!

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AFTER suffering in so many assignments and exams, finally HOLIDAY IS HERE!!! YEEEEEEAAAYYYYY!

Rencana gw selama liburan:
1. Belajar matlab. Yeah.
2. Membaca SEMUA buku klasik gw. Termasuk novel terbitan india itu yang gw gak berselera baca
3. Menyampul semua buku-buku gw dengan cover yang mengganggu mata (kayak novel keluaran india itu) dengan sampul kado yang bagus dan tulisan ala scrapbook yang keren
4. Mencoba semua gerai frozen yoghurt yang ada: red mango, heavenly blush, smooch, dan lain lain
5. Main ke rumahnya si Nene dan menginvasi rumah dan buku-bukunya

semoga terlaksanaaaa. amiiin :)

oh iya gw mau memperkenalkan fobia baru gw:
fobia postingan di www.hildatobing.com

hahahaha. see ya! :)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

friendship matters

"Gw gak butuh punya 1000 temen dalam waktu satu tahun, gw prefer punya satu aja temen, tapi last long sampe 1000 tahun..."

Sebenernya gw itu orang yang susah buat bertemen walopun kelihatannya dari luar gw bertemen dengan siapa aja. Emang dengan siapa aja sih soalnya gw gak pilih pilih kalo temenan. Tapi kalo gw punya temen, gw bakalan setia banget sama temen gw itu, yah kecuali temen gw udah gak mau lagi temenan sama gw, itu lain soal.

Tadi malem gw curhat sama si dia (hehehe :p) masalah pertemanan. Kata dia: "kamu takut ya kehilangan temen? gak usah takut, temen yang sebenarnya itu gak bakal ninggalin kamu." Hmmm, masuk akal sih, tapi gimana kalau dia kayak udah bosen temenan sama gw? Itu temen bukan ya namanya? Kok kayak cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan gitu ya modelnya? Sekarang gw tanya deh sama lu semua, gimana perasaan lu kalau lu sayang sama temen lu, tapi temen lu biasa aja sama lu?

Biasa aja sih sebenernya, tapi kok miris ya bagi gw?

Lesson learned: Bagaimanapun, kita harus jaga jarak sama orang-orang di sekitar kita, jangan terlalu deket. Deket kan juga ada batesnya (kayaknya gw kenal deh ini quotenya siapa :p)

Anyway, gw lagi suka banget dengerin lagu ini:


Friday, December 18, 2009

count your blessing

If you think the Mona Lisa is stunning, you should look at my masterpiece,





in the mirror.

-God



Happy Hijriyah New Year all! <3

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

who the hell do you think you are?

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Emang perlu alasan ya buat menyukai ataupun gak menyukai seseorang?

Kayak seorang temen gw nanya: "Chu, lu kenapa gak suka sih sama orang ini? Ada apa sih?" apalagi sampe ngeledek-ledekin gw: "Ati-ati suka lho sama tuh orang hahaha...". GODDD! gw masih punya mata ya! Dan gw pilih-pilih juga lah buat suka sama orang. Yang jelas orang yang kayak gitu gak bakalan ya masuk ke domain gw! Gak bakalan!

Sorry guys gw lagi minat banget marah marah.

Orang yang lagi gw sebelin ini bener-bener ngeselin deh. Dia gak begitu kenal gw, dia junior gw di kampus (ya walaupun umurnya tuaan dia sih), tapi dia sangat SOK mengenal gw bahkan ngeledek-ledekin gw kayak yang biasa dilakukan sama temen-temen deket gw. Temen-temen deket! Geez, who the hell do you think you are? Ngapain banget sih? Gw aja ya, se-ekstrovert gimanapun gw (tapi gw emang introvert sih) gw gak bakalan ya SKSD sama orang sampe segitunya. Apalagi pake ngucapin hal-hal yang sebenernya kalo diucapin sama temen-temen deket gw sih gw terima terima aja, tapi INI? Ah udah ah gw kesel banget, sampe pindah tempat makan lho gw tadi demi menghindari orang ini.

Yang mau gw bilangin sama lu semua, kalo lu semua gak begitu deket sama seseorang, apalagi orang itu hipersensitif dan agak ansos kayak gw, jangan pernah berani-beraninya SKSD dengan meledek dia dengan ledekan ngeselin yang biasa dilontarkan hanya oleh temen-temen deketnya. Kalo nggak ya selamet deh, lu dapet predikat sebagai "The Most Insolent Person Alive" versi gw,

Ah udah ah gw kesel!!!

Monday, December 14, 2009

today's mood enhancer






GOOD DAY EVERYONE!!! <3333333

Friday, December 11, 2009

satu lagi postingan cheesy bulan ini

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Semua hal emang ada konsekuensinya, termasuk menyukai seseorang.

Kita ambil contoh Bella Swan yang akhirnya pacaran sama the most wanted vampire guy in the world, Edward Cullen. Dia pada awalnya mencari tahu tentang siapa itu Edward dari buku sejarah bangsa Quileute, dia mengamati mata Edward yang berubah-ubah warna, sama perilakunya yang gak wajar kalau mencium bau tubuh Bella. Dan setelah yakin bahwa Edward itu vampir, Bella bilang sama Edward bahwa dia suka sama Edward dan nggak peduli Edward itu mau vampir kek, mau genderuwo kek, tapi dia tetep aja suka.

Bella: "Akhirnya domba jatuh cinta pada singa..."
Edward: "Singa masokistik menjijikkan"


Mungkin susah bagi Bella untuk menerima kenyataan bahwa orang yang dia cintai itu ternyata jauh berbeda dengan dirinya, dan hampir nggak mungkin bagi mereka untuk bersatu. Tapi Bella meyakinkan dirinya sendiri bahwa ia akan menerima segala konsekuensi yang akan ia tanggung ketika ia mencintai vampir. Dia nggak peduli kalau suatu waktu si Edward laper, nggak ada cemilan, terus ngegigit dia. Dia nggak peduli kalau dirinya hampir terbunuh, dia hanya peduli sama angan-angannya untuk bersatu dengan si Edward itu.

Ya kalau lu cinta sama seseorang, semua emang ada konsekuensinya. Sekarang yang perlu dipermasalahkan adalah apakah lu yakin suka sama seseorang itu dan sanggup menghadapi semua konsekuensi yang timbul? Terlebih lagi kalau orang itu memang berbeda jauh dengan lu. Pasti konsekuensinya akan semakin banyak.

Gw nulis postingan ini karena gw emang lagi mengalami hal ini, dan gw sedang mengamati, orang rela aja menderita bahkan sampe mengorbankan semuanya (hartanya, teman-temannya, keluarganya, nyawanya) demi sesuatu yang namanya cinta. Gw heran aja, kok orang-orang jadi kayak terhipnotis gitu sih sama yang namanya cinta? Such a stupid, thanks God i'm not a part of them.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

i'll have my own stream

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Lagi kesel sama kenyataan.

Pertama-tama gw nanya ke diri gw sendiri, apakah gw sudah menjadi temen yang baik buat orang lain? Apakah gw hanya mendekati mereka ketika gw susah atau gw butuh mereka aja? Apakah di saat-saat senang gw malah melupakan atau malah tidak menginginkan mereka di samping gw?

Jawaban yang gw dapet dari diri gw sendiri adalah: nggak.

Gw nggak pernah berteman dengan seseorang hanya karena gw ingin mendapatkan manfaat dari mereka. Gw itu tulus dan gw nggak ngarep apa-apa kok dari berteman dengan temen-temen gw. Tapi yang gw pengen dan gw harapkan adalah, mereka bisa melakukan seperti apa yang gw lakukan. Bukannya gw besar kepala dan sombong ya, tapi gw mengasihi seseorang, atau beberapa orang, sesuai dengan kemampuan mengasihi gw yang maksimal yang dapat gw berikan kepada mereka. Ya itu pilihan mereka sih mau begitu atau mau pada pendirian masing-masing, gw terima kok.

Gw sadar sih, gw ya gw, orang ya orang. Gw punya cara gw untuk bersikap sendiri dan gw gak mungkin ikut campur untuk menentukan sikap orang harus kayak gimana ke gw. Gw juga seharusnya ya, gak berharap banyak-banyak sih dari orang-orang yang kayak gitu, cukup tahu aja kalo di dunia ini istilah yang namanya air susu dibalas sama air tuba betulan berlaku. Hahaha *ketawa miris*

Udah ah gw gak mau ngarep apa-apa lagi. Capek dan sakit.


Friday, December 4, 2009

the devil's child

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Tadi pagi pas gw berangkat ke kampus gw lewat sebuah toserba di daerah Pondok Cabe. Terus gw melihat ada spanduk putih bertuliskan gede-gede:

"SAKSIKAN! Manusia Liliput! Kebesaran Allah yang paling memukau!
tinggi: 60 cm, berat: 5 kg, usia: ** tahun!"

Kira-kira tulisannya begitu, terus ada tanggalnya juga tapi gw lupa. Nah pas gw lihat spanduk ini gw spontan langsung keinget sama film The Phantom Of The Opera dimana dulu si Phantom itu dijadiin "objekan" sama seorang pria pegawai backstage di Paris Opera House.

Phantom atau yang dikenal sebagai "The Devil's Child" di emang punya muka buruk rupa yang jelek banget dan saking jeleknya sampe ditutupin karung goni. Ketika si pria pegawai backstage itu kedatangan customer yang penasaran pengen ngeliat si Phantom, dia menyeret si Phantom dan membuka karung goni penutup wajah buruknya si Phantom dan spontan, wajah buruk itu menjadi bahan tertawaan semua orang. Phantom teraniaya banget, tetapi pria pegawai backstage itu jadi kaya banget karena pertunjukan "The Devil's Child" yang dia suguhkan.

Gak tahan diperlakukan seperti itu sama si pria pegawai backstage, si Phantom lalu menjerat leher pria itu waktu pria itu lagi ngitung duit di deket "kandangnya" si Phantom dengan tali laso sampai pria itu mati.

Gw rasa, kekurangan seseorang harusnya nggak boleh dieksploitasi seperti itu. Apalagi sampai dijadikan sarana untuk mencari uang seperti yang dilakukan si pria pegawai backstage kepada Phantom. Gw nggak tau sih sebenernya si manusia liliput yang spanduknya gw liat tadi pagi ini emang bener-bener pengen menghibur orang atau cuma pengen dieksploitasi demi keuntungan si pengeksploitasi semata, cuma seharusnya kekurangan yang dimiliki oleh orang itu seharusnya dijadikan pemicu oleh si empunya kekurangan untuk lebih berserah diri dan tetap mensyukuri nikmat yang diberikan Allah, bukan sebagai sarana untuk mencari uang.

Cuma pikiran gw aja sih, semoga gw termasuk orang-orang yang masih bersyukur atas kenikmatan jasad sempurna yang diberikan oleh Allah Subhanahuwata'ala. Amin...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

TA ku sayang, TA ku malang

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Gw lagi berpikir nih, ngapain gw di lab citra kalo gak ngerjain TA?

Yang lain pada ngerjain TA atau ngerjain riset, sedangkan gw kalo gak ngerjain tugas-tugas kuliah gw ya gw ngenet, main, baca buku, dll. Gw jadi merasa malu deh :(

Kapan ya gw bisa memulai TA gw? Memulainya sangat sulit deh...

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

kalo cinta ya jangan maksa lah

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Lagi agak sebel nih sama kelakuan seseorang.

Jadi dia itu sebenernya gak ngerti apa arti kata "cinta" sebenernya, tapi dia dengan gampangnya aja ngomong "gw cinta sama lu" atau "cinta gw cuma buat lu" dan kata-kata gombalisme lain yang bikin gw pengen meninggal ngedengernya. Gini deh, kalau lu tau arti kata "cinta" yang sebenarnya, lu harusnya gak memaksakan cinta lu ke seseorang dan bahkan memaksa orang itu mencintai lu balik.

Ya sebenernya gw juga sedikit sakit hati sih kalau gw gak dibales sama orang, dan gak ada hal yang lebih indah selain to be loved in return. Tapi kalo lu ditolak sama seseorang ya anggep aja lah itu bukan takdir lu dan lu bisa ngedapetin yang jauh jauh lebih baik dari orang itu. Gak usah pake menye-menye bilang kalo "gw akan mencintai lu selamanya". GODDD! ada orang lain yang lebih menarik juga lu pasti akan segera berpaling. Sempit banget sih pandangannya?

Hahaha sori ya gw jadi ngeluh-ngeluh gini...

AYO LANJUT LAPORAN KP!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

sindrom malas

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Pagi teman!

Akhir-akhir ini gw terkena sindrom malas. Mengepos sesuatu di blog pun rasanya sangat malas. Tadinya sih gw pengen cerita tentang perjuangan gw mendapatkan tiket new moon setelah mengantri selama 3 jam, tapi males ah.

Gw bahkan menelantarkan plurk gw sampe karmanya turun. Hmmm, apa gw freeze aja ya karmanya?

Currently reading: Emma - Jane Austen

Thursday, November 19, 2009

shut up and let me go!

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Hei kalian, pernah gak ngerasain takut buat suka sama seseorang?

Ha, gw lagi ngalamin lho sekarang. Otak gw sih masih waras ya, tapi yang namanya juga cewek, dipuji-puji dikit, dibilang pinter, dikasih makan (lho? emangnya sapi?) pasti meleleh juga kan akhirnya? Hmmm, gw gak bilang gw udah meleleh lho, cuma gw hampir meleleh. Garis bawahi dengan stabilo anda masing-masing kata "hampir".

Yang mau gw tanyakan adalah, bagaimana caranya mengalihkan pikiran aneh itu dari kepala gw ya? Apakah dengan mengerjakan laporan KP? I think it's not helping -_- gw juga gak tahu ya kenapa tiba-tiba gw kepikiran kayak gini, tapi dari pengalaman gw yang udah-udah sih, rasa ketakutan gw yang berlebih pada seseorang itu akan mensugesti diri gw sendiri dan pada akhirnya gw jadi suka betulan sama tuh orang. Ya Allah, astaghfirullah, naudzubillah min dzalik jangan sampe deh!

Apa gw ganti nomer aja ya? Cukup bijaksana sih ganti nomer, tapi nomer gw kan udah dikenal sama khalayak luas termasuk dosen-dosen gw. Ntar urusan asdos mengasdos dan TA men-TA gimana dong? Ah coba kita cari solusi lain.

Bagaimana kalau dia saja yang gw suruh diam dan gw menghilang dari peredaran demi menghindari orang itu? Bijaksana tidak ya?

Monday, November 16, 2009

thank you Allah

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Satu masalah gw udah kelar. Yang jelas gw lega banget deh hal-hal yang gw khawatirin gak terjadi. Alhamdulillah...

Tips:
Kalau lagi gundah gulana, mendingan lu sholat terus curhat sama Allah deh. Insya Allah beban di pundak lu jadi berkali-kali lipat lebih ringan.

Makasih ya Allah :) :)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

complain to myself

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First, i'd like to say sorry to write this post in italian. I dedicated this post to myself, so please don't mind...

Non so cosa sta succedendo con me. Ho sbalzi d'umore e non posso controllare il mio ego recentemente. Sono diventato come uno stupido, mentre sospettare il mio migliore amico in amore con l'uomo che ho amato. Dio mi odio!

I piangere e piangere e mi sono svegliata con gli occhi umidi, ho anche pianto durante il sonno. il mio pensiero era piena di lei e per lui e non posso fare a me stesso di distrarre la mia mente in un altro le cose. Quello che ho fatto?! Non sono riuscito a essere un buon amico migliore. Ho fallito perche ora, pensa che lei non hanno più amici. Solo perche sono troppo stupido per farle una domanda stupida: "Mi ami l'uomo che ho amato?"

Oh Dio dimmi perché sono così maleducati!

Nessuno conosce il futuro, Dio solo lo sa. Non mi importa di lui più. Forse, è meglio così. Non piangere, Tieta. Tutto andra bene. Il tempo può guarire tutto...

Non piangere! Dio vi darà modo :)

Friday, November 13, 2009

bis neraka

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Heho!

Hmm, pikiran ini terlintas ketika gw sedang berada di atas bis neraka yang sering disebut juga Deborah. Bagi yang nggak tau bis Deborah itu apa, biar gw jelasin lebih lanjut deh:

Jadi kalau kalian melihat ada bis ungu yang penuh dengan orang-orang didalamnya, terus punya trayek Depok-Kalideres atau Depok-Lebak Bulus, keneknya orang batak, jalannya ajrut-ajrutan, sudah dapat dipastikan itu bisnya. Cukup jelas kan deskripsi gw? Lanjut.

Deborah yang tiap hari gw naikin itu yang trayeknya Depok-Lebak Bulus. Secara rumah gw di pamulang, ya gw tiap hari naik itu dulu dari lebak bulus. Abisan gw gak tau sih jalan tembus yang lewat sawangan (norak hahaha, brapa taun sih gw kuliah di UI?). Setau gw, bis yang trayeknya Depok-Lebak Bulus itu ya cuma Deborah seorang, jadi kebayang kan tiap pagi penuhnya kayak apa?

Di dalem bis itu gw sering banget liat fenomena-fenomena alam (?) yang bikin hati gw miris. Sedikit contoh:

- Ada ibu-ibu, bawa barang banyak dan dia terlihat sudah tua. Gak ada yang mau kasih duduk coba! Hmm, keterlaluan ya. Mau gak sih orang-orang itu pas udah tua diperlakukan seperti itu di kendaraan umum? Pastinya gak mau.

-Ada ibu-ibu (lagi) bawa anak banyak dan semua anaknya kecil-kecil. Mereka dibiarin berdiri aja ya! Padahal boook, gw aja kalo berdiri aja udah pengen pingsan banget gara-gara udara yang pengep, gimana anak kecil yang notabenenya punya tinggi 1/2 dari tinggi gw? Turun langsung TBC kali tuh anak.

- Ada mbak-mbak, agak b*tchy, pake rok mini ato legging ala mbak-mbak melawai. Dikasih duduk sama mas-mas! No comment.

- Di Deborah itu kan ada tuh bangku yang di sebelah supir yang melintang gitu (tau kan?). Kadang orang suka asal naik aja dan gak nyisain sisa orang lain buat duduk. Padahal kalo dia berbalik kan masih ada space buat orang lain supaya bisa duduk.

- Kalo gw duduk sama bapak-bapak, doi duduknya suka ngangkang. Abis itu kan tempat duduk di Deborah kan sempit tuh ye, udah deh gw duduk cuma setengah pantat doang. Encok deh sampe kampus hahaha.

Bagi yang pernah ngerasa ngelakuin ini semoga memperbaiki kelakuannya, soalnya kita kan hidup sebagai makhluk sosial, harusnya ya (ini gw bilang harusnya) kita punya sedikit aja kepekaan sosial sama orang-orang di sekeliling kita. Kita gak akan dihargain kan kalo kita gak menghargai orang terlebih dahulu?

Monday, November 9, 2009

reasons why i hate midnight sale

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1. Midnight itu waktunya tidur bukan waktunya belanja. Gak ngerti deh gw kenapa banget quality time itu dipake buat desek-desekan belanja -_-
2. Midnight sale itu gw rasa cuma buat orang-orang kurus. Gw nyari baju disitu astaghfirullah susahnyaaaa T-T emang udah dasarnya kodrat gw muatnya cuma karung goni kali ya?
3. Midnight sale bikin jalanan di sekitar mall yang mengadakan midnight sale tersebut MACET!
4. Midnight sale bikin antrian taksi jadi panjang dan bikin cewe2 ber-high heels tinggi yang menenteng kantong belanjaan segambreng merengek manja sama cowo mereka masing-masing buat minta digendong
5. Midnight sale bikin sesek napas.
6. Midnight sale merusak tali silaturahmi dengan berantem sama orang gara-gara rebutan barang yang kita pengenin

dan sesungguhnya masih banyak hal-hal yang gw benci dari midnight sale.

Saturday night kemaren ibu gw ngajakin gw ke PIM buat nyari rok buat gw. Ya gw seneng lah orang mau dibeliin baju, dan dengan penuh semangat gw mengantar ibu gw ke PIM.

Kita sampe di PIM kira-kira jam setengah 9 dan midnight salenya belom mulai. Yaudah, gw dan nyokap memutuskan untuk makan dulu di foodcourt PIM 2. Pas gw liat tuh foodcourt, SUBHANALLAH, parah banget. Ga ada tempat duduk sama sekali dan lu tau antrian KFC panjang banget sampe nutupin antriannya fiesta steak. Gosh, akhirnya gw dan nyokap memutuskan ke sport station dulu buat beli converse menggantikan converse batik gw yang solnya udah lepas.

Abis beli converse, udah jam 9 kan ya, akhirnya gw dan ibu gw memulai perburuan midnight sale. Mulai dari toko-toko yang ada label "Participating Store" nya sampe ke pusatnya yaitu di North Skywalk. FYI, yang diskon bukan cuma baju doang, tapi makanan juga. Alhasil tuh di depan Sushi Tei orang-orang penuh pada ngantri pengen makan disitu, Gelatissimo juga diskon lho! Hahaha, gw malah ngebahas makanan bukannya baju :p Terus yang paling parah itu di everbest. Nyokap tadinya pengen kesitu cuma kita GAK BISA MASUK. Terus suasananya hectic banget disitu, mbak-mbak SPG nya aja sampe mau nangis kayaknya, antara seneng tokonya rame sama sedih gara-gara kebingungan. Sabar aja ya mbak.. hehehe.

Pas pulangnya gw sama ibu gw laper berat. Akhirnya kita naik lagi ke foodcourt dan alhamdulillah, keadaannya lebih manusiawi daripada pas tadi kita datengin sebelomnya. Akhirnya kita makan KFC dengan brutalnya gara-gara kelaperan T___T memalukan sekali. Eh terus disana ibu gw ketemu temen SD nya gitu, namanya tante Ita. Nah terus si tante nanya gini sama ibu gw:

Tante Ita: "Nyari apa di midnight sale?"
Ibu gw: "Rok buat Tita"
Tante Ita: *sambil memandangi gw dari ujung kaki sampe ujung kepala* "Tita BISA ya pake rok?"

Sialan, sebiadab itukah gaya berpakaian gw sampe orang nyangka gw gak bisa pake rok? -_- Hmmm, sebenernya bukan gak bisa sih, tapi gak pantes T-T Tapi menurut ibu gw, gw itu cakep banget kalo pake rok, jadi doi semangat banget tuh mau beliin gw rok yang banyak, tapi apa boleh buat situasi dan kondisi di lapangan tidak memungkinkan. Akhirnya ujung-ujungnya beli converse juga -_-

Pulangnya kita ke lobby buat ngantri taksi. Astagfirullah, antrian taksi naudzubilah setan panjangnya. Akhirnya gw suruh ibu gw yang betisnya udah mau putus buat duduk di bangku satpam sementara gw mengantri taksi. Yang bikin gw gerah banget pas gw ngantri di blakang gw ada cewe, cakep sih cuma manjanya itu loh. Dia bilang ke cowonya, "yang, aku cape nih, gendong dong..." sambil gelendotan di leher cowonya. GEEZ! siapa suruh ke midnight sale pake high heels? Varises kan tuh kaki lu jadinya! Hahahahah SUKURIN! *gila jahat banget gw*. Mana taksinya ABIS lagi, ya Allah lengkap deh penderitaan gw. Tapi terus tukang taksinya nawarin gw silver bird, yaudah gw naik aja deh daripada gw tambah emosi di antrian.

The end, akhirnya kita berdua pulang dengan sari-sari kehidupan yang diserap habis oleh midnight sale.

Hasil perburuan:
Sepatu converse abu-abu keren dan no skirts. Padahal tujuan utamanya beli rok hahaha.

GW KAPOK ke midnight sale! Sumpah!

Friday, November 6, 2009

recent fav song




Pour un Infidèle - Coeur de pirate


Pour Un Infidele - Coeur De Pirate

Tes lèvres en tremblent encore,
Et l'homme que ton coeur porte semble moins fort,
Et si le combat prend fin,
C'est sûrement parce qu'on t'as pris par la main,

Et tout bas tu me murmure,
Tout ce que j'aime tu me l'assure,
Et dans tes défaites, tu me promets,
Qu'un nouveau jour est pour demain,

Doucement tu me fais voir,
Les plus douces de tes histoires,
Plus notre idylle avance d'autres filles entrent dans la danse,

Ses Lèvres en tremblent encore,
Et sous mon poids son cœur vibre plus fort,
Et les craintes qu'elle a s'amplifient,
Elle sait qu'une autre fut dans mon lit,

Tout bas je lui murmure,
De calmer toutes ses inquiétudes,
Et dans mes mensonges, je lui rappelle,
Qu'à mes yeux il n'y a plus qu'elle,

Doucement tu me fais voir,
Les plus douces de tes histoires,
Plus notre idylle avance d'autres filles entrent dans la danse.

Doucement tu me fais voir,
Les plus douces de tes histoires,
Plus notre idylle avance d'autres filles entrent dans la danse.


Thursday, November 5, 2009

crazy week

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SENIN:
- Ke Bu Kasiyah ngobrolin masalah ujian hari sabtu
- Ke Bu Aniati bertanya apa yang harus dilakukan lagi buat TA
- Email Pak Adila daftar peserta lomba
- Pinjem buku olimpiade dari Bu Kasiyah
- Belajar buat OSN besok

SELASA:
- OSN PTI!
- Belajar buat ujian MSI besok (4 slide. Apalan)
- Kerjain rangkuman MSI

RABU:
- Ujian MSI
- Kuis MSI
- Kerjain rangkuman MSI

KAMIS:
- Deadline tugas MSI
- Minta tandatangan buat log asisten
- Belajar buat asistensi kalkulus, kerjain soal latihan ujian
- Ke TM Bookstore beli bukunya Hasnan
- Beli mouse!

JUM'AT:
- Asistensi kalkulus 2 kali (jam 10 sama jam 1)
- Kerjain laporan KP (lagi) -_________-
- Belajar algoritma curve fitting
- Belajar chi-square sama wilcoxon test
- Nonton This Is It (setelah 2 kali ditunda) sama si Hasnan
- Beli Pride And Prejudice edisi Peacock

SABTU:
- Reunian umroh di rumah Bu Yati (buset udah kaya ibu-ibu beneran ya gw?)
- Belajar ANUM!
- Kerjain laporan KP (lagi) -__________________-

MINGGU:
- Ke mangdu sama Piun (kalo jadi)
- Belajar CTL metfor

Minggu cuma satu, harinya cuma ada tujuh, satu harinya cuma 24 jam. Pengen rasanya gw membelah diri T______T


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

geek geek geek

...
I've become a geek lately, seriously.

The proof:



This is my messy bed, together with (from left to right): IMC exercises, my beloved laptop, my spiral note (which contains so many absurd mathematical equations), Anansi Boys book, one of my non-parametric statistic books, and finally formal method note. Yes baby, i'm multitasking.

Just look at it's title: Problems proposed for the 13th International Mathematics Competition for University Students. It's so creepy and i can do only 5 from 30 problems (and only 1 was correct)

And that's my time-killer book. Anansi Boys from the genius Neil Gaiman. Truthfully i'd read this book for several times, but i like the way Neil Gaiman wrote and tell the stories about Fat Charlie and the spider god.

Hmmm, today's is my best friend, Ivonne's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR! (And get well soon too :p)

Ivonne and me. In our office at PKM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

a single quote from becoming jane

Henry:
"Mr.Lefroy does have a reputation..."

Jane:
"Presumably as the most disagreeable, insolent, arrogant, impertinent of men!"

---Becoming Jane



Mr. Lefroy do reminds me of someone.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

my dear mr darcy...



I could easily forgive his pride, if he had not mortified mine.

---Elizabeth Bennet about Mr. Darcy,
Pride And Prejudice Chapter 5.


Akhir-akhir ini terbius dengan buaian novel-novel klasik, walaupun sebenernya agak susah sih ngebacanya. Salah satu yang gw suka itu Pride And Prejudice nya Jane Austen. Kepompong Bookclub tanggal 5 november bakal ngebahas buku itu, yang udah gw baca dengan susah payah 1 bulan yang lalu.

Bagi yang udah nonton film Becoming Jane, novel Pride And Prejudice kayaknya berkolerasi deh sama film itu. Gw melihat ada beberapa kemiripan antara si Jane Austen dengan karakter Lizzie Bennet, Thomas Lefroy sama Mr.Darcy dan beberapa karakter lain kayak Mr. Wisley, Cassandra Austen dan yang lain-lain. Cuma di Pride And Prejudice, Jane Austen menulis impiannya buat menjadi seorang wanita yang akhirnya happily married sama seorang pria kaya, tampan, dan (sebenernya) romantis. Sayangnya Jane Austen nggak memiliki ending kisah yang kayak gitu buat hidupnya sendiri...

Sekarang gw lagi baca bukunya Edith Wharton yang judulnya The Age Of Innocence. Lumayan sih, romance comedy juga, sama kayak Pride And Prejudice, cuma bahasanya lebih ringan dan jokesnya lebih kerasa. Tapi gak ada yang ngalahin Jane Austen laaah...

Anyway, sedikit update dari hidup gw yang ngebosenin:
1. Gw sekarang resmi bermukim di Lab 3206 (Lab Citra). Sebenernya agak memalukan sih, karena TA gw belom ada progress apa-apa. Cuma disana sinyal hotspotnya kenceng, jadi hopefully progress gw juga ikutan makin kenceng. Amiiin...
2. Akhir-akhir ini menonton lagi film-film korea lama kayak Coffee Prince, Princess Hours, sama Sassy Girl. Jadi kangen masa-masa nganggur pasca-SPMB dimana hari-hari gw cuma diwarnai sama Go Eun Chan, Shin Chae Gyong, sama Chun Hyang.
3. Akhirnya jum'at kemarin gw ujian DAA! Open notes, waktunya 150 menit, lima soal. Empat dari lima soal itu pseudocode semua dan sama sekali gak ada di notes gw. Silahkan tebak saja akhirnya gimana.
4. Still, he can't be moved. Dan gw akan tetap menghabiskan malam-malam minggu gw sekarang dan seterusnya dengan buku-buku statistik non parametrik gw, internet speedy yang kenceng, sama adik-adik gw.

Have a good saturday night all! (with or without your boyfriend/girlfriend)

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Friday, October 16, 2009

update hidup

Akhir-akhir ini jadi menye-menye dan berakhir dengan menulis fanfic tentang Persephone sama Hades. Tapi orang-orang bilang bagus sih, jadi gw berencana melanjutkannya di blog gw huhuhu. Tunggu seriesnya ya saudara-saudara! Siapa tau gw dilirik jadi penulis script sinetron :p

Gw juga sudah melihat secercah harapan pada kuliah DAA gw, ditandai dengan gw mengerti apa itu namanya quick sort dan randomized quicksort. Tips kuliah DAA biar ngerti: duduk terus di sebelahnya si Why dan tanya-tanyain terus sampe dia annoyed hahahaha. Semoga harapan DAA gw bukan harapan palsu.

Kemaren abis nginep dari rumahnya si Ivon. Niatnya sih ngerjain PR DAA, cuma entah kenapa ada faktor-faktor x dari kamarnya si Ivon yang bikin gw ngantuk berat. Sekarang gw tau deh kenapa tu anak kalo dirumah susah banget belajar, kamarnya pewe berat (dan gw baru menyadarinya setelah gw nginep disana beberapa kali). Akhirnya kita berdua bertahan hidup dengan cuma ngerjain satu nomer doang -__-

Lagi kepingin banget buku ini:


Orang yang mencintai menanggung risiko lebih besar, dan sering harus membayar harga yang lebih tinggi... Alih-alih membuka hati, cinta lebih sering menutupnya. Mengapa? Mungkin kita khawatir, orang lain akan merampas cinta itu dari kita, dan mereguknya habis di depan mata kita. Tapi cinta bagai udara, tak berbatas...

Buku ini mengisahkan tiga cerita dengan dilema serupa: Apakah kita sanggup mencintai dan menerima cinta dari orang lain? Sanggupkah kita eksis di dunia yang didominasi oleh keserakahan dan rasa iri ini? Buku ini berkisah tentang sifat-sifat jahat, perjuangan untuk hidup tanpa rasa takut, serta pencarian cinta.
--Resensi dari goodreads.com


Thursday, October 15, 2009

Persephone merindukan Hades.

Belum genap seminggu ia meninggalkan dunia bawah, meninggalkan Hades yang dicintainya, ia sudah sangat rindu padanya. Ia rindu matanya yang gelap, suara hembusan nafasnya, dan semuanya yang berkaitan dengan pria itu.

Semenjak ia pergi, ia diliputi semacam perasaan kompleks yang tak tergambarkan. Campuran antara perasaan senang karena bebas, kehilangan, ketakberdayaan, kemarahan, dan kesedihan yang mendalam. Ia ingat dulu bagaimana Hades menculiknya, memaksanya untuk tinggal di dunia bawah, memaksanya untuk melakukan hal-hal yang tidak biasa ia lakukan, memaksanya untuk mencintainya.

"Apa yang bisa kau lakukan tanpaku, Hades?", desah Persephone sambil memandangi langit.Sinar matahari menghangatkan kaki Persephone. Ia memejamkan matanya, membayangkan betapa indahnya berbagi sinar matahari dengan Hades, yang tentu saja tidak pernah merasakan hal seperti ini karena dunia bawah tidak pernah disinari oleh matahari.

Ia lalu membayangkan Hades menyentuh tangannya dan merapikan gelungan rambutnya. Dan entah kenapa semua hal dalam benaknya menjadi sangat nyata.Tangan itu. Nafas itu. Kulitnya yang pucat sedingin es. Hades terasa begitu dekat dengannya sekarang. Persephone (yang tentu saja sedang berdelusi) tersenyum dan membuka matanya. Ia tidak akan khawatir lagi sekarang,

karena Hades masih menunggunya kembali.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

pada suatu hari

Pada suatu hari,
Ada seorang teman yang peduli sekali pada salah seorang temannya. Ia memberi saran-saran, sugesti-sugesti, dan komentar-komentar positif kepada temannya itu dengan satu tujuan. Untuk menjadikan temannya itu menjadi pribadi yang labih baik.

Pada suatu hari,
Ada seorang teman yang terluka. Temannya yang ia kasihi itu tak mendengarkan sepatah katapun nasihat-nasihatnya, petuah-petuahnya. Hatinya hancur, harapannya untuk menjadikan temannya itu menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik buyar sudah. Hatinya kemudian kembali utuh lagi karena mengingat persahabatan antara mereka berdua, kemudian dihancurkan lagi oleh ketidakpedulian dan ke-acuh tak acuh-an, utuh lagi, lalu lebur lagi. Begitu seterusnya hingga ia tak sanggup lagi menyimpannya sendirian.

Pada suatu hari,
Ada harapan yang hilang. Ia lelah pada temannya itu. Ia lelah mengasihi temannya itu. Ibunya selalu mengajarinya untuk terus selalu mengasihi seseorang, tapi hatinya tak tahan lagi. Perlahan, ia menjauh dari temannya itu.

Akankah.
Pada suatu hari.
Perasaan kasih sayang itu berubah menjadi benci?

kuharap sih tidak.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Friday, October 9, 2009

aku tidak bisa hidup tanpamu

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What would i give to live where you are?
What would i pay to stay here beside you?
What can i do to see you smiling at me?

We wont be walk
We wont be run
And we can't stay all day in the sun
Yes, you and me
And i can't be, part of your world...

Dia berusaha menahan airmatanya. Dia berusaha menguatkan hatinya. Dia berusaha memalingkan wajahnya dari wajah orang yang ia cintai itu. Hades, sang dewa kematian.

Walau bagaimanapun mereka menapak di dunia yang berbeda. Khayalan Persephone tentang Hades membawanya jauh melintasi langit, sedangkan Hades masih ada di dunia bawah, menunggu dan akan selalu menunggu Persephone.

"Hades", kata Persephone, setengah berbisik sambil mendekatkan bibirnya ke telinga Hades yang tertutup rambut hitam ikal berkilau, "aku berjanji, aku akan kembali ke dunia bawah-mu. Tempat kita mengikat janji untuk selalu bersama-sama."

"Aku tidak bisa hidup tanpamu", sergah Hades cepat, menggenggam tangan Persephone yang berada di atas pipinya yang bersemu merah karena menahan amarah dan tangis.

Persephone menangis. Bulir airmatanya yang berkilauan kini membasahi pelupuk matanya. Tangisannya adalah tangis yang paling pilu yang pernah ia keluarkan. Sambil dengan susah payah mengehela nafasnya, dia berbisik pada dirinya, ini adalah tangisanku yang terakhir. Ia menegakkan kepalanya dan tersenyum pada Hades.

Hades balas tersenyum pada Persephone dan melepaskan tangannya dari tangan Persephone. Dengan hati yang serasa tertusuk-tusuk ribuan anak panah, ia melepaskan Persephone, kembali ke dunianya. Dunia yang benar-benar berbeda dari dirinya.

"Selamat tinggal Hades", bisik Persephone. Dadanya sesak menahan tangis.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

mengeluh ah

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Akhir-akhir ini gw ngerasa capeeek banget. Cuaca gak mendukung, gw ingusan terus, pelajaran gak ada yang masuk ke otak gw, pulang malem terus, jalanan macet, orang-orang dijalan pada emosi semua. Ah gila nih!

Udah gitu kuliah DAA tambah susah. Dari awal gw kuliah, gw cuma ngerti insertion sort sama master method doang. Selebihnya, gw mengandalkan intuisi hahaha. Makanya tuh ngerjain PR seminggu kagak kelar-kelar. Tapi gw selalu dan selalu berusaha di kelas itu. Tiap malem gw pantengin tuh buku minimal 15 menit. Pantengin doang sih, tapi gak masuk ke otak gimana dong? Pak Adila maafkan aku...

Gw sekarang juga jadi males bawa-bawa laptop ke kampus. Biasanya kan kalo nungguin kuliah gw kan internetan ga jelas gitu, sekarang gw BELAJAR men! Gila kesambet apaan ya gw? Ya tapi hal itu gw lakukan buat memperbaiki kasta IP gw yang alhamdulillah kian tua semester gw, IP gw semakin naik. Tapi gw juga internetan juga sih, tapi numpang laptopnya Dissa, Piun, Nene, dan temen-temen gw yang ninggalin laptop dan harus ketiban sial dibajak plurk atau pupenya sama gw hahaha.

Percintaan gak usah ditanya. Gak ada kemajuan yang berarti. Adanya malah dekadensi.

Anyway tadi gw ke Gramedia sama si Nene, terus liat buku-buku klasik jadul murah. Harganya cuma 17 ribuan dan judulnya lengkap! Ada 20.000 Leagues Under The Sea, seri-serinya Jane Austen, seri-serinya Shakespare, Alice In Wonderland, Pinnochio, The Age Of Innocence, Ivanhoe, dan lain-lainnya (ada kali sekitar 30 judul). Covernya sih mencurigakan, covernya Sense And Sensibility malah bikin gw pengen muntah, jiji lah pokoknya. Tapi murahnya itu lho bok! Menggiurkan sangat.

Akhirnya gw berakhir pulang dengan membawa 4 buku:
1. The Age Of Innocence (Edith Wharton)
2. Alice In Wonderland (Lewis Caroll)
3. A Midsummer Nights Dream (Shakespare)
4. Pride And Prejudice (Jane Austen)

Yang A Midsummer Nights Dream gw beli cuma 10 ribu lho! Tapi critanya gak komplit, retold gitu. Lumayan lah buat membunuh waktu gw di angkot haha. Terus Pride And Prejudice gw beliin buat si Dissa, dan gw membeli Alice In Wonderland versi asli (akhirnya) selama ribuan tahun menanti (najis lebay).

Hmmm, happy wednesday night peepy!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

this conversation

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Hey, Boy! Did you know?
I lie awake in my dreamy bed
Thinking of you and those crazy times we’ve had

Sometimes I wonder..
Whether you’re a Jekyll or you’re a Hyde?
Sometimes you are wise and tell no lies

Oh I can’t tell..
‘cause you make me feel so loved and confused
This conversation may never happen

Hey, Boy! Did you know?
I miss you so though it may not show
Thinking of you and those crazy times we’ve had

My dear I have news to tell you
Your silly jokes did brighten me
You cheered me up when I was down..

----------------

the conversation above, of course, will never happen.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

kisah booklite dan kuliah daa yang bikin patah hati

Dua hal itu tuh yang bikin gw patah hati sekarang.

Kemaren akhirnya jadi beli booklite di TGA Bookstore margo. Aduh dilema bener pas beli itu, udah mahal, saldo atm gw tinggal pas pasan gara-gara waktu itu gw beliin Kyrios Gundam buat si Hasnan. Akhirnya setelah setengah jam berpikir sambil muter-muter ngeliat judul-judul buku disana, akhirnya gw beli juga tuh booklite.

Hmmm, bagi yang gak tau booklite, booklite itu adalah lampu buat baca yang bisa dijepitin ke bukunya. Kan tempat tidur gw dirumah tempat tidur susun dengan gw tidur dibawah dan si Hasnan tidur diatas. Jadi kan kalo gw baca buku agak gelap gelap gimana gitu kan. Yaaa itulah alasan utama mengapa gw membeli booklite itu saudara saudari.

Dan booklitenya kecil gitu 50 ribu! Nggak ding, yang bener itu 56.700 dan gw yang tadinya mau beli The Zahir akhirnya mengurungkan niat sampai kiriman dari nyokap dateng. Sedih deh. Tapi worth it sih, booklitenya lumayan berguna. Seenggaknya mata gw sekarang gak sakit lagi kalo mau baca buku sebelom tidur.

Terus ada kabar dari kuliah DAA (Desain dan Analisis Algoritma) yang gw gak masuk sehari gara-gara gw pergi umroh. DAA yang notabenenya adalah kuliah paling susah semester ini emang bener-bener bikin gw senewen. Gw udah baca-baca dirumah tuh ye materi, tapi pas di kampus dijelasin sama dosen gw, gw bingung banget! Masalahnya pengertian gw berbeda dengan yang dosen gw bilang. Udah gitu dosen gw ngejelasinnya juga ngebingungin jadinya ya gw cuma bisa mengucap istighfar atas kedzaliman kuliah yang bernama DAA.

Mana ada PR dan susah banget lagi! Tadi gw sudah berupaya berkonsorsium dengan si Bram dan Bram juga kayaknya liat soalnya aja udah mau muntah. Gw pun gak tahu apa-apa soal growth function dan notasi-notasi apalah itu. Ya jadinya kita gak jadi konsorsium dan gw memutuskan untuk menginap di rumahnya si gendud (baca: Ivon) hari kamis besok buat ngerjain tu PR.

Cukup deh komplennya. Sekarang yang harus dilakukan: baca slide bab 3 tentang mathematical notation!

P.S:
H-1 pengumpulan PR, gw ada ujian Metode Formal. Nggak, itu cukup kasi tau aja kok gak komplen :p

P.S.S:
Hmmm, kayaknya gw musti sms Ricky nih buat berguru :p

Monday, September 28, 2009

today

Bangun telat banget jam 5.30 sedangkan gw harus berangkat ke kampus jam 5.45. Akhirnya mandi ayam, makan tiga sendok doang, minum susu, langsung nyamber tas berangkat ke kampus.

Ternyata saudara saudari, hari ini saya tertipu. Gw kira ya hari ini pasar jumat-fatmawati bakalan macet gara-gara hari ini hari pertama masuk anak sekolahan, tapi ternyata nggak sama sekali! Itu jalanan yang biasanya gw nyaris satu jam sendiri disitu sekarang kosong melompong. Jadi keki gw, kenapa tadi gak sekalian aja gw bangun jam setengah tujuh?

Begitu sampe kampus masih pagi banget, masih jam 7. Gw langsung ke kelas dan cuma ada si Denvil doang. Akhirnya nungguin orang-orang pada dateng sambil baca Hostile Hospital. Beberapa saat kemudian Bu Bela dateng dan kelas pun dimulai. Yah, gw kira kelas metfor hari ini ngebahas apaan gitu yang seru, eh ternyata ngebahas yang kemarenan, walhasil gw ngantuk pol di kelas terus tidur-tidur ayam sambil manggut-manggut (maafkan saya bu, huhuhu)

Abis metfor gw kira lab 02 bakalan rame tuh ya sama temen-temen gw dedengkot-dedengkot angkatan xx, tapi ternyata mereka sebagian tidak datang! Yah kecewa lah gw, akhirnya hari ini gw abisin cuma dengan nyampah sama numpang main pupe di laptopnya si Indah sama si Piun.

Hari ini rencananya sih mau beli lampu baca di margo. Yang dijepitin ke buku itu loh. Cuma panasnya bikin males ah. Apa gw naik ojek aja ya? Ah bingung sekali.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

quick updates

Hey peepy!

Sorry for no-updates in this 10 days because i just came back from my omra trip from Saudi Arabia yesterday. The trip was so memorable, unforgetable, and i want to go there once again.

Next week i'll have metfor exam. I certainly MUST have a full mark on my paper!

Bye peepy :)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

dear marie...

‘Marie, let’s suppose that two firemen go into a forest to put out a small fire. Afterwards, when they emerge and go over to a stream, the face of one is all smeared with black, while the other man’s face is completely clean. My question is this: which of the two will wash his face?

‘That’s a silly question. The one with the dirty face of course.’

‘No, the one with the dirty face will look at the other man and assume that he looks like him. And, vice versa, the man with the clean face will see his colleague covered in grime and say to himself: I must be dirty too. I’d better have a wash.’

‘What are you trying to say?’

‘I’m saying that, during the time I spent in the hospital, I came to realize that I was always looking for myself in the women I loved. I looked at their lovely, clean faces and saw myself reflected in them. They, on the other hand, looked at me and saw the dirt on my face and, however intelligent or self-confident they were, they ended up seeing themselves reflected in me thinking that they were worse than they were. Please, don’t let that happen to you.’

---From The Zahir by Paulo Coelho

Thursday, September 10, 2009

cry. as much as you like

You have changed. I don't like it. I want our old relationship back.

Sending sms in midnight, talking about math, smiling and gazing at each other, studying together, laughing at your unfunny jokes, listening music at one earphone, like those times, you know what i mean.

And so, by the time you've becaming such a busy-bee, i felt lonely and missed the old you. The old same inhuman, and humor-tasteless you. I know this is such a difficult time i must experienced in order to keep my love for you remains. And i know i can handle it.

But i can't help myself. I already cried. Two minutes ago.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

so damn addicted to THIS:

poupeegirl fashion brand community


This is my lovely Poupee :) You girls MUST love this kind of thing. It's so addictive and very interesting! I already invite my sister, my best friend Piun, and even my mum to play this :p so please check this website:

http://pupe.ameba.jp

... and have fun! :)

xoxo,
Tachu

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

super's last break fasting

Yesterday i had a break fasting event together with my college friends on Fani's house. Her house was like a shipwrecked after we came gyahahahaha. Sorry Fan :p

And there is an exchange present event too. Yuan had got my Miiko comic book while i got a book titled "Khasiat Shalawat". Actually, i got Nene's comic book, but Randy (who is a Catholic) got that shalawat book, so we exchange our present. Nene got Randy's present (two packs of LOOSE LEAF! -.-) poor her... :P

The dish? Oh how i love the grilled chicken made by Fani's mother. Also loving fruit punch which i made together with my other friends.


Look at Monchi's (girl in the pink t-shirt) expression -.-

Me. Smiling after eating so much food

Gotta go. I must come back home together with Irvan, Ivon, and Piun.

See ya!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

life is (so) sweet!




Indeed!

I already passed my first week at my 7th semester. Not bad actually, except the earthquake which happened on my MSI class, when i was reading Little Women and not listening to my lecture :p Well, i don't like the speaky-speaky course like MSI and Manpro actually, i like a mathematical one, like Metfor :)

I LOOOOOVE METFOR!

Tomorrow, i'll have another jolly metfor class, with a jolly energic lecturer (who reminds me of Julie Andrews) Mrs. Belawati. Class starts at 8 am but still i can't sleep because of that overexcitement in my mind!

Okay, lets have a dream fulfilled with mathematical symbols, formulas, and some logically equivalence propositions!

By the way, i love to read some classic books nowadays such as Little Women, Pride And Prejudice, The Secret Garden, and so on. Me, together with one of my bestest friends Fani, found a treasured section in TGA Senayan City which fulfilled with so much interesting and breathtaking classic books such as The Jane Austen Series (6 novels in ONE BOOK!), some kind of Shakespare's work, 20.000 Leagues Under The Sea, Anne Of Green Gables, Peter Pan, and the one which have made me lusting over time... THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!

Gosh. The prizes are between Rp.49.000 - Rp.150.000. Wait for my aid el fitr allowance and i'll rush straight there with Fani!

Buona notte everyone :)

Thursday, September 3, 2009

i love love love loooove this song! :)



If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

'Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

'Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

(Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am)

Monday, August 31, 2009

quote of the day

“ You can find the good in anyone if you give them a chance. They may disappoint you sometimes but they may surprise you too. Always remember this… you will never get to know someone until you listen to what’s in their heart. ”

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

i'm so afraid of losing you...


Last night i cried when seeing your face. It's seems like i will never meet you again though we still can meet each other. I don't want either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, i want time stopped know. I want to treasure every single minutes, which i should spent it beside you, if this world is not spin (i hope it is so).

I'll pray for you, for us, everyday on my daily prayer. I promise...

~143. ti amo

Friday, August 21, 2009

thursday, august 20th 2009, 11.40 pm

Oh my sound, please listen to me, what is going on with my precious lover? i'm here, still waiting only for him, and i'm still hoping deep down inside my heart...

(Suara, dengarkanlah aku, apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku? aku disini menunggunya, masih berharap di dalam hatinya...)

I listen to Luna Maya's voice on and on and on while staring on my internship code. THOSE CREEPY LITTLE BUG HAVEN'T FIXED YET!

OH DAAAAMMMNNNN!!!!

Last afternoon, i'd fixed it with Mario. Voila, bug was fixed, but guess what, another bug was appeared. And the worst thing is, this one is a very fatal bug.

I texted Ricky to ask about this bug and he's not reply my message back for almost 2 hour. Grrrr, i thought he's already asleep -.-" (i wonder, do people who have gifted brains sleep easily like him?)

Actually my internship ends this week, but there are still many bugs and error which we (me and Ivon) supposed to fix. And there's still deployment and internship report. Gosh, i'm glad i don't need to have an internship trial like my seniors years ago. If so, i guess i'll die before this internship ends.

By the way, I'm lusting for two another Ilana Tan's novel: Summer In Seoul, and Winter In Tokyo, not since after i read Autumn In Paris for several times (and cried several times too). And i want to borrow it, not buy it (because my 7th semester is coming and i have to buy more books and copy the hardsources for my next-semester TA). Will someone buy it for me, please? *begging*

*Turn off my mp3, plug out my cable, go to sleep*

Who cares about bug?! Hahahahaha *laugh ironically*

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

will i?



we are born to love as we are born to die, and between the heartbeats of those two great mysteries lies all the tangled undergrowth of our tiny lives. there's nowhere to go but through. and so we walk on, lost, and lost again,

in the mapless wilderness of love.

--Tim Farrington

Monday, August 17, 2009

Why it's became very uneasy, to have someone who cares about me nowadays. I'm already waiting for months but still, you are became very uneasy to understand. Can you tell me, how can I love you exactly along together with our differences and determination? You can tell me, can't you?

This feelings came on my mind at least 20 times this day.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

everybody's changing

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Since everybody's changing
And I don't know why.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

Ooo...
Everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

Monday, August 10, 2009

the graduation matters

Counting: 19 days to his graduation day.

I actually envy my friends who can take TA this semester, but too bad, i couldn't because my sks isn't enough (gosh). But i can graduate by the course based way by taking 7 courses (21 sks) this semester. Or else, i graduate next semester with my numerical analysis TA.

Which way should i take?

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

10 things to do before I die

After seeing nene's post about the things she wants to do before she die, now it's my turn to share mine.

Here it is.

1. Going to Mecca with my mum, brothers, sisters, aunts and uncles
2. Becoming an Algebra lecturer
3. Have a Ph.D degree in Numerical Computation
4. Seeing Disney's Main Street Electrical Parade on Disneyland with my own two eyes
5. Meet Euler's great-great-great grandchild and tell him/her how clever, great, and adorable is his/her great grandfather
6. Reach grade 10 in ABRSM and finally became a real pianist
7. Write a book. A mathematical one
8. [edited because of the repost of number 2] Established my own handmade jewelry company
9. Marrying a code god, or a violin god
10. Prove myself, that mermaid is exactly exist

That's all :)

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

alice in wonderland 2010 movie!

COMING SOON ON MARCH 5TH. 2009.

I CAN'T BARELY WAIT FOR IT, OH GODDDD!!!

This is Alice who will be portrayed by 19 years old Australian actress, Mia Wasikowska (pronounced:va-si-ko-u-ska). I love her hair though it isn't as blonde as the classic Alice in Disney movie. Above all i love her dress and fingerless glove!


This is Tweedledee and Tweedledum. For those who didn't know who are they, they are the freak twins whom Alice had met in search of the white rabbit. But i kinda dissappointed that their look is not as lunatic as in the Disney. In other words, i think Dee and Dum in 2010 movie is kinda creepy...


This is my favourite character in Alice In Wonderland. YES! Johnny Depp will be portraying The Mad Hatter in the movie! I love everything on him. His pink sash, his overlength red eyebrow, and his wacky smile. I love both Mad Hatter on Disney and the movie!


This is The Queen Of Heart. Helena Bonham Carter, who'll be portraying the Queen have the same aura as her's in Disney movie. Wicked, sassy, and also violent like in Disney. Also glad that Helena is not as pompous as the original queen :)

And this is the Wonderland!


Oh God, so lovely!

This is the official HD trailer. Enjoy :)

Monday, July 27, 2009

my numerical analysis book is gone!

It's gone! It's already gone. My lovely orange numerical analysis book (written by my own Dean, Mr.Chan) which i bought for my TA. I'm kinda sad :( Uhhh...

Ricky is the one who is responsible for this! *angry*

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Anyway, i just found these lyric on web. Sing it with Lady GaGa's Poker Face melody!

Mum mum mum MAH. Mum mum mum MAH.
Mum mum mum MAH. Mum mum mum MAH.

I wanna curse ‘em like in the Ministry.
Magic, antics, Fred and George, baby it’s HP (I love it.)!
I know that I’m the boy who lived, so really please don’t start
I’m off fighting Voldemort and breaking Ginny’s heart

Oh Oh Oh Oh. I’m super hot, Death Eaters are not.
Oh Oh Oh Oh. I’m super hot, Death Eaters are not.

Can’t read my - can’t read my -
No, they can’t read my Potter face
(He’s gonna kill old Voldie!)
Can’t read my - can’t read my -
No, they can’t read my Potter face
P-p-p-potter face P-p-potter face
P-p-p-potter face P-p-potter face

I roll with a guy named Ron and a chick named Hermoine
Destroying Horcruxes is fun when you’re with me
Avada Kedavra is not the same without a wand
And baby when it’s war, if it’s not tough it isn’t fun

Oh Oh Oh Oh. I’m super hot, Death Eaters are not.
Oh Oh Oh Oh. I’m super hot, Death Eaters are not.

Can’t read my - can’t read my -
No, they can’t read my Potter face
(He’s gonna kill old Voldie!)
Can’t read my - can’t read my -
No, they can’t read my Potter face
P-p-p-potter face P-p-potter face
P-p-p-potter face P-p-potter face

I won’t tell you about Quidditch Sign your broomstick
‘Cause I’m battling the Dark Forces
I’m not dying, I’m just off killing some evil tyrants
Just like old Hagrid back at Hogwarts
I can smash you with my bare hands
I promise this, I ain’t coy -
I am hotter than Malfoy

Can’t read my - can’t read my -
No, they can’t read my Potter face
(He’s gonna kill old Voldie!)
Can’t read my - can’t read my -
No, they can’t read my Potter face
P-p-p-potter face P-p-potter face
P-p-p-potter face P-p-potter face

OH GOD! This is masterpiece! Hahahaha LOL

Thursday, July 23, 2009

lovely

I don't know why, but i'm feeling lovely this day :)

Eventhough my code progress aren't satisfying, my head still spins around, and nothing special about him today, i feel like living in a musical drama, like Mary Poppins or something like that. My body seems so light and my lips can't stop smiling. I feel lovely!

You know, i met my evil twin after 1,5 weeks of no seeing, no chit-chatting, no coding together. I FINALLY met her. Hahahahaha. She's nuts as always, get stressed easily by errors, and even look chubbier (I wonder did she gain her weight?.) I miss our time together, coding together, in my office in PKM. Ivonne! Lets meet nyororo again! Hahahaha.

My another bestfriend Nene was sick since yesterday. Lets pray for her...

Get well soon Nene :)

Monday, July 20, 2009

ajari aku - adrian martadinata



Tomorrow is his TA trial. I hope he can pass all the obstacles easily, besides i MISS HIM SO MUCH. I MISS HIM!

Not enough?

I MISS HIM.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

the thypoid fever

The fever strikes again. I found myself lay on the bed everyday with almost-40-degree temperature. I can't move, eat, and even go to the bathroom was being such a difficult thing to do. I want to work. I want to meet peoples. I don't want to have this fever.

My bones all hurts because laying on bed all day and my stomach is in excruciating pain. How can I stand this situation?

Oh, stop complaining.

Actually I feel like I want to die now.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

the big party of democracy in Indonesia


I'd been bedrested since 3 days ago, not go teach linear algebra at monday, and had not coming to office too. My head was all dizzy, my eyes were spinning around, and my stomach was hurts. All gathered on my poor body with a disease named typhoid fever.

But now, i'm such in a good condition because today is the big party of democracy in Indonesia :) i'll certainly voted for someone i trust can save this nation from multidimensional crisis (not exclude, moral crisis).

Go JK!! :) :)

Friday, July 3, 2009

data entry

MY EYES HURTS!

I'd rather solve a problem in project euler rather than seeing stacks of medical records which are waiting to be inputted to database. But, i kinda entertained with some peculiar things in that medical records, like weight (yes, WEIGHT), and born year :) (there's one boy with the born year 1994.)

And i found 2 person, fasilkom's new freshman, with the same name as him :D hahahaha.

Oh, i forget to tell you that i met him yesterday. I was so delighted to see him eventhough on way home i'd seen a horrible ghost. Three horrible ghost (i can see ghost anyway.) I miss him soooooooooooooooo much! :(

I must close this window so my supervisor cannot see me blogging in the middle of inputting the data. Adios!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

i want you



Image from here
I'm going to meet him today :)

Sunday, June 28, 2009

welcome, love

image from here

He's so fascinating to me. Yes, i really am in love.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

I just need some new books

Percy jackson's trilogy.
Lola rose.
Around the world in 80 days.
The complete illustrated tales of hans christian andersen.
Witch of portobello.
Jane austen book club.

I need them, I need those little books to soothe myself in those several difficult weeks of my internship. I need more books!

Somebody, buy me some books please? :) :)

Anyway, I just hear a shocking news several days ago. I'm shock, angry, sad, and want to punch him in his nose! I hate him! I hate the man who made my bestfriend break down in endless agony. Once again, I HATE HIM!

In that night, I cried a lot and can't sleep until 3pm. I think about this on and on and on until now. Damn, I think she MUST see ryan to mutilate the man who have made her suffer.

Moral of the story: "too much love will kill you".
(typedef love code; and you'll have "too much CODE will kill you" hahaha :D)

Good day!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

i hate codes

Yesterday i was attempting FPC programming exercise at an online judge site. Oh crap! The problems was so difficult! I can only solved 1 (which is hello world. ONLY hello world) from 10 problem. What a shame!

I sat in front of my laptop, typing that codes for almost 4 hours and the result is one of this three status: "wrong answer", "time limit exceeded", and "runtime error". Never "accepted". Budi, the code-god who is very clever especially in java already solved 6 problems in 3 hours, and me? Don't ask, none of them was solved by me except the problem 1001 (hello world it is).

Me: "Why the programming exercise is so difficult?"
Ricky: "No it is not."
Me: "Yes it is!"
Ricky: "I'm doing SCJP pre exam exercise. You wanna try?"
Me: "OF COURSE NOT!"

Budi was the one who choose the problems for this exercise. You're so mean Budi! So meaaaannn!

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Cut that 'geeky' talk. I love this song anyway, and i want to sing this song in his graduation day :)


AB Three - Selamat Datang Cinta

sekian lama kumenunggu
sekian waktu berlalu
kutahu semua pasti kembali

Tiada pernah kusesali
dan tiada pernah kuragu
kutahu….semua pasti kembali
di dalam hidupku…

Selamat datang cinta
di tempatmu yang terindah
Seharusnya kau berada
selamanya di dunia
selamanya di dunia…

Selamat datang cinta
di tempatmu menghabiskan
seluruh sisa hidupmu
selamanya di dunia
selamanya … di dunia

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

10 reasons why i love him

I love him because:

1. I see my world in his eyes
2. I can cry on his shoulder (eventhough i may not brave enough to do that)
3. I can lay my head on his arms
4. I smell freedom from his scent
5. I know the roses are red by seeing his lips
6. I hear music when he talks and whispers
7. I see the moonlight beneath his pale skin
8. I see his minuses and ready to take it all
9. I can touch the sky when he says 'I love you'
10. I love him because I love him. Just that :)

Sorry for becoming so cheesy. We're going cheesy when we are in love right?

Sunday, June 21, 2009

if i say...


If I say "How are you", will you say "I'm fine. How about you?"

If I say "I miss you yesterday", will you say "me too"?

If I happy, will you be happy too?

If I think about you, will you think about me too?

If I fixed you a drink, will you say "It quenched my thirst, thank you very much"?

If I say "I'm stupid and I'm not that worthy", will you say "no problemo?"

If I love you, will I be loved in return?

-- Ahmad Frisco Ramadhan

qotd

Pendapat orang lain tentang kamu, tidak harus jadi kenyataan. (Other people's opinion of you does not have to become your reality)
-- Les Brown

Saturday, June 20, 2009

already forgiven

How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood? You know what, she already forgive me! :)

Ricky was right, all that she needs is attention. From now, i should pay more attention to her, send her sms, write in her wall, and do what Ricky had suggested to me: ask her to go out, just me and her.

I'm so afraid of losing my bestfriends, so i'm trying hard to keep them. I love them, they're as precious as diamonds for me :)

P.S:
Seriously, Ricky should make a counseling agency. He could make money from there :)

Friday, June 19, 2009

which tvxq member are you?

The result is: Kim Jaejoong.


fashionable and good-looking; you're naturally attractive. your smile would melt anyone's heart even if they're made of stainless steel. you're a serious yet funny person at the same time. you always know what's the best words to say to comfort people; and you tend to be motherly some times. you care a lot about the people you love, and you're not ashamed to show it. you always have an important role in a team / group / family, even though you're not the leader. people tend to rely on you as their listening ears when they have problems. you're blunt, but that's exactly the reason why people confide in you!

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'Your smile would melt anyone's heart even if they're made of stainless steel' is a funny statement. Stainless steel huh? It suits him well... :p

Anyway, I started to like tvxq when my brother showed it to me several weeks ago. He showed me a song titled 'Share The World' which have been an anime soundtrack. I don't know what anime it is, but the song is quite good :) Then, i found this on youtube:


Share The World - TVXQ (Piano Version)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

just another slag

Some people says:
"Friends are like confetti. The more they get closer, the more they can rub each other."

I don't know, this is why people often called me oversensitive. I have a slag with one of my best friends (i told you, she one of my best friends), because of that "best friend" term. We have a misunderstanding but i can't say 'sorry' to her. I'm just too shy to do it.

Clarification:
I HAVE best friends. They are my college friends and the 'first bestfriend' term i used on my note titled '100 truths' on facebook refer to 'best friend in my childhood'. That's the misunderstanding. Now, i've changed the answer of the question on that note to 'my mom' because she's my first best friend i ever met.

And then this is the best advice. From Ricky.
Him: You supposed to asked her to go out. You should pay attention to her.
Me: Yeah but our house is too far. Another suggestion?
Him: Distance doesn't matter for the sake of your best friend right?
Me: :)

You know, he's potential to open a counseling agency in the future :)

stupidity

My last evening chat with my best friend Nene. I think her job was sucessfully made her out of her mind :D

(Sorry for no english translation, because if i translate it into english it'll become unfunny.)

Me:
neneee....
ivon nyebeliiinn...
masa dia nge-unfollow gw di plurknya...
ngajakin ribut banget dia huhu

Hilda Tobing:
HAHAHAHA
emang enak
~mabok

Me:
huuuu jahat kamu
tau dah nyebelin banget
mana pas tengah2 bikin kakp -_-

Hilda Tobing:
kakap?
lu olang jualan ikan?
~mabok berat

Me:
aaahh nene!
kebanyakan ngoding sih lo!
jadi kosleting
sleting? sleting bukannya di celana ya?
~ ikutan mabok

Hilda Tobing:
sleting bukannya yg buat ronda ya?
poskamling

Me (thinking how BIG the difference of 'sleting' and 'poskamling' are):
anjrit jauh banget
lo kenapa sih ne?
gila ya?

Hilda Tobing:
eh iya loh jauh banget
gw ngoding seharian

Me:
baru sadar lo? haha
eh b2t, beneran lho nyebelin banget
menurut lo nyebelin ga?
terus dia bilang: "yee suka2 gw ini kan plurk gw"
emang plurk gw disturbing ya?

Hilda Tobing:
iye, kaya *************
ya mana gw tau??
orang gw kaga ngeplurk

Me:
enak aja lu nyama2in plurk gw sama **********!
itu sama aja kayak mirip2in muka gw sama ban dalem tau!

Hilda Tobing:
HAHAHAHA
bego lu
masa ban dalem?

Me:
abisan perbandingannya kan JAUH!
gw cakep, ban dalem abstrak
eh lu ngoding lu!
ntar diomelin supervisor aja hahahaha
dasar ban dalem gyahahahahah

Hilda Tobing:
eh kurang ajar
lo tuh ban luar
ban dalem masih mulus
ban luar? beuh ke laut aja

Me:
ban luar bebentuk!
ban dalem abstrak hahaha putih2 gajelas
ban luar itu TOUGH!
ban dalem itu klemer2
~mabok berat

Hilda Tobing:
ban dalem apaan putih??
bodo, ban luar tough tapi lapisan yg kena EE
mampus lo
~mabok

Me:
nene kamu gila ya?
ah mau gw post ah di note fesbuk hahahahaha
ne, lo udah dikabarin tentang nonton bareng belom?
soalnya *** ***** kemaren pesen 2 tiket.. dy udah kasi tw lo lom?
cieeee NGEDET! hahahaha

Hilda Tobing:
EH MONYONG!
sialan lu ban luar

Me:
~aduh internet lagi NGEDET ya?
hahahaha
mabok parah

Hilda Tobing:
HAHAHA
kaya yg buat ngambil nasi
sodet

Me:
sodet buat masak tau!
lo ga pernah masak sih!
eh eh sodet bahasa inggerisnya apaan hayyoooo?
woy!
apaan? ga bisa jawab ya?
nyerah?
nyeraaaaaaaaaaahhhh????
jawabannya: SHOW THAT!
tunjukkan anu! hahahahahah
udah ah gw pulang dulu
dah ban dalem!
saw that

Hilda Tobing:
EH GW BARU BACA
curang!!!!!!!!
lagian saw that itu bukan tunjukkan anu tau
saw that = lihat anu (lampau)

Me:
bukan saw that tapi SHOW THAT!
SODET!
udah ah gw mau balik
deeeee ban dalem -___-

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She's totally out of her mind. Hahahaha...

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

even so...

I.
LOVE.
HIM.
SO.
MUCH.


sorry for the melancholy! :p

i recommend you this book!

Nightmare Academy: Open The Portal To The End of The World!


Dean Lorey was a great genius! (After Clive Barker anyway)

I keep reading this book since i finished my Anne of Avonlea last night. Although the story was so 'Harry Potter', yeah, some kind of an extraordinary school, supranatural teachings, eccentric teacher, something like that. And there's tons of typo inside. Lots of it (blame that editor.)

Never mind. Just drag yourself to the nearest bookstore now and buy this book. It's so hard to put down you know?

The story is about a gifted boy, Charlie Benjamin who joins a monster fighting academy named Nightmare Academy. He's gifted because he can open a portal to a strange world named Netherworld and let the monsters who live there enter human's world. Ok, enough for the spoiler, just read the book anyway.

Click http://www.nightmareacademy.co.uk/