quote of the day

“ You can find the good in anyone if you give them a chance. They may disappoint you sometimes but they may surprise you too. Always remember this… you will never get to know someone until you listen to what’s in their heart. ”

i'm so afraid of losing you...

Last night i cried when seeing your face. It's seems like i will never meet you again though we still can meet each other. I don't want either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, i want time stopped know. I want to treasure every single minutes, which i should spent it beside you, if this world is not spin (i hope it is so).

I'll pray for you, for us, everyday on my daily prayer. I promise...

~143. ti amo

thursday, august 20th 2009, 11.40 pm

Oh my sound, please listen to me, what is going on with my precious lover? i'm here, still waiting only for him, and i'm still hoping deep down inside my heart...

(Suara, dengarkanlah aku, apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku? aku disini menunggunya, masih berharap di dalam hatinya...)

I listen to Luna Maya's voice on and on and on while staring on my internship code. THOSE CREEPY LITTLE BUG HAVEN'T FIXED YET!

OH DAAAAMMMNNNN!!!!

Last afternoon, i'd fixed it with Mario. Voila, bug was fixed, but guess what, another bug was appeared. And the worst thing is, this one is a very fatal bug.

I texted Ricky to ask about this bug and he's not reply my message back for almost 2 hour. Grrrr, i thought he's already asleep -.-" (i wonder, do people who have gifted brains sleep easily like him?)

Actually my internship ends this week, but there are still many bugs and error which we (me and Ivon) supposed to fix. And there's still deployment and internship report. Gosh, i'm glad i don't need to have an internship trial like my seniors years ago. If so, i guess i'll die before this internship ends.

By the way, I'm lusting for two another Ilana Tan's novel: Summer In Seoul, and Winter In Tokyo, not since after i read Autumn In Paris for several times (and cried several times too). And i want to borrow it, not buy it (because my 7th semester is coming and i have to buy more books and copy the hardsources for my next-semester TA). Will someone buy it for me, please? *begging*

*Turn off my mp3, plug out my cable, go to sleep*

Who cares about bug?! Hahahahaha *laugh ironically*

will i?

we are born to love as we are born to die, and between the heartbeats of those two great mysteries lies all the tangled undergrowth of our tiny lives. there's nowhere to go but through. and so we walk on, lost, and lost again,

in the mapless wilderness of love.

--Tim Farrington

Why it's became very uneasy, to have someone who cares about me nowadays. I'm already waiting for months but still, you are became very uneasy to understand. Can you tell me, how can I love you exactly along together with our differences and determination? You can tell me, can't you?

This feelings came on my mind at least 20 times this day.

everybody's changing

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Since everybody's changing
And I don't know why.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

Ooo...
Everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

the graduation matters

Counting: 19 days to his graduation day.

I actually envy my friends who can take TA this semester, but too bad, i couldn't because my sks isn't enough (gosh). But i can graduate by the course based way by taking 7 courses (21 sks) this semester. Or else, i graduate next semester with my numerical analysis TA.

Which way should i take?

10 things to do before I die

After seeing nene's post about the things she wants to do before she die, now it's my turn to share mine.

Here it is.

1. Going to Mecca with my mum, brothers, sisters, aunts and uncles
2. Becoming an Algebra lecturer
3. Have a Ph.D degree in Numerical Computation
4. Seeing Disney's Main Street Electrical Parade on Disneyland with my own two eyes
5. Meet Euler's great-great-great grandchild and tell him/her how clever, great, and adorable is his/her great grandfather
6. Reach grade 10 in ABRSM and finally became a real pianist
7. Write a book. A mathematical one
8. [edited because of the repost of number 2] Established my own handmade jewelry company
9. Marrying a code god, or a violin god
10. Prove myself, that mermaid is exactly exist

That's all :)