welcome, love

image from here

He's so fascinating to me. Yes, i really am in love.

I just need some new books

Percy jackson's trilogy.
Lola rose.
Around the world in 80 days.
The complete illustrated tales of hans christian andersen.
Witch of portobello.
Jane austen book club.

I need them, I need those little books to soothe myself in those several difficult weeks of my internship. I need more books!

Somebody, buy me some books please? :) :)

Anyway, I just hear a shocking news several days ago. I'm shock, angry, sad, and want to punch him in his nose! I hate him! I hate the man who made my bestfriend break down in endless agony. Once again, I HATE HIM!

In that night, I cried a lot and can't sleep until 3pm. I think about this on and on and on until now. Damn, I think she MUST see ryan to mutilate the man who have made her suffer.

Moral of the story: "too much love will kill you".
(typedef love code; and you'll have "too much CODE will kill you" hahaha :D)

Good day!

i hate codes

Yesterday i was attempting FPC programming exercise at an online judge site. Oh crap! The problems was so difficult! I can only solved 1 (which is hello world. ONLY hello world) from 10 problem. What a shame!

I sat in front of my laptop, typing that codes for almost 4 hours and the result is one of this three status: "wrong answer", "time limit exceeded", and "runtime error". Never "accepted". Budi, the code-god who is very clever especially in java already solved 6 problems in 3 hours, and me? Don't ask, none of them was solved by me except the problem 1001 (hello world it is).

Me: "Why the programming exercise is so difficult?"
Ricky: "No it is not."
Me: "Yes it is!"
Ricky: "I'm doing SCJP pre exam exercise. You wanna try?"
Me: "OF COURSE NOT!"

Budi was the one who choose the problems for this exercise. You're so mean Budi! So meaaaannn!

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Cut that 'geeky' talk. I love this song anyway, and i want to sing this song in his graduation day :)


AB Three - Selamat Datang Cinta
sekian lama kumenunggu
sekian waktu berlalu
kutahu semua pasti kembali

Tiada pernah kusesali
dan tiada pernah kuragu
kutahu….semua pasti kembali
di dalam hidupku…

Selamat datang cinta
di tempatmu yang terindah
Seharusnya kau berada
selamanya di dunia
selamanya di dunia…

Selamat datang cinta
di tempatmu menghabiskan
seluruh sisa hidupmu
selamanya di dunia
selamanya … di dunia

10 reasons why i love him

I love him because:

1. I see my world in his eyes
2. I can cry on his shoulder (eventhough i may not brave enough to do that)
3. I can lay my head on his arms
4. I smell freedom from his scent
5. I know the roses are red by seeing his lips
6. I hear music when he talks and whispers
7. I see the moonlight beneath his pale skin
8. I see his minuses and ready to take it all
9. I can touch the sky when he says 'I love you'
10. I love him because I love him. Just that :)

Sorry for becoming so cheesy. We're going cheesy when we are in love right?

if i say...

If I say "How are you", will you say "I'm fine. How about you?"

If I say "I miss you yesterday", will you say "me too"?

If I happy, will you be happy too?

If I think about you, will you think about me too?

If I fixed you a drink, will you say "It quenched my thirst, thank you very much"?

If I say "I'm stupid and I'm not that worthy", will you say "no problemo?"

If I love you, will I be loved in return?

-- Ahmad Frisco Ramadhan

qotd

Pendapat orang lain tentang kamu, tidak harus jadi kenyataan. (Other people's opinion of you does not have to become your reality)

-- Les Brown

already forgiven

How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood? You know what, she already forgive me! :)

Ricky was right, all that she needs is attention. From now, i should pay more attention to her, send her sms, write in her wall, and do what Ricky had suggested to me: ask her to go out, just me and her.

I'm so afraid of losing my bestfriends, so i'm trying hard to keep them. I love them, they're as precious as diamonds for me :)

P.S:
Seriously, Ricky should make a counseling agency. He could make money from there :)

which tvxq member are you?

The result is: Kim Jaejoong.

fashionable and good-looking; you're naturally attractive. your smile would melt anyone's heart even if they're made of stainless steel. you're a serious yet funny person at the same time. you always know what's the best words to say to comfort people; and you tend to be motherly some times. you care a lot about the people you love, and you're not ashamed to show it. you always have an important role in a team / group / family, even though you're not the leader. people tend to rely on you as their listening ears when they have problems. you're blunt, but that's exactly the reason why people confide in you!

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'Your smile would melt anyone's heart even if they're made of stainless steel' is a funny statement. Stainless steel huh? It suits him well... :p

Anyway, I started to like tvxq when my brother showed it to me several weeks ago. He showed me a song titled 'Share The World' which have been an anime soundtrack. I don't know what anime it is, but the song is quite good :) Then, i found this on youtube:


Share The World - TVXQ (Piano Version)

just another slag

Some people says:
"Friends are like confetti. The more they get closer, the more they can rub each other."

I don't know, this is why people often called me oversensitive. I have a slag with one of my best friends (i told you, she one of my best friends), because of that "best friend" term. We have a misunderstanding but i can't say 'sorry' to her. I'm just too shy to do it.

Clarification:
I HAVE best friends. They are my college friends and the 'first bestfriend' term i used on my note titled '100 truths' on facebook refer to 'best friend in my childhood'. That's the misunderstanding. Now, i've changed the answer of the question on that note to 'my mom' because she's my first best friend i ever met.

And then this is the best advice. From Ricky.
Him: You supposed to asked her to go out. You should pay attention to her.
Me: Yeah but our house is too far. Another suggestion?
Him: Distance doesn't matter for the sake of your best friend right?
Me: :)

You know, he's potential to open a counseling agency in the future :)

stupidity

My last evening chat with my best friend Nene. I think her job was sucessfully made her out of her mind :D

(Sorry for no english translation, because if i translate it into english it'll become unfunny.)

Me:
neneee....
ivon nyebeliiinn...
masa dia nge-unfollow gw di plurknya...
ngajakin ribut banget dia huhu

Hilda Tobing:
HAHAHAHA
emang enak
~mabok

Me:
huuuu jahat kamu
tau dah nyebelin banget
mana pas tengah2 bikin kakp -_-

Hilda Tobing:
kakap?
lu olang jualan ikan?
~mabok berat

Me:
aaahh nene!
kebanyakan ngoding sih lo!
jadi kosleting
sleting? sleting bukannya di celana ya?
~ ikutan mabok

Hilda Tobing:
sleting bukannya yg buat ronda ya?
poskamling

Me (thinking how BIG the difference of 'sleting' and 'poskamling' are):
anjrit jauh banget
lo kenapa sih ne?
gila ya?

Hilda Tobing:
eh iya loh jauh banget
gw ngoding seharian

Me:
baru sadar lo? haha
eh b2t, beneran lho nyebelin banget
menurut lo nyebelin ga?
terus dia bilang: "yee suka2 gw ini kan plurk gw"
emang plurk gw disturbing ya?

Hilda Tobing:
iye, kaya *************
ya mana gw tau??
orang gw kaga ngeplurk

Me:
enak aja lu nyama2in plurk gw sama **********!
itu sama aja kayak mirip2in muka gw sama ban dalem tau!

Hilda Tobing:
HAHAHAHA
bego lu
masa ban dalem?

Me:
abisan perbandingannya kan JAUH!
gw cakep, ban dalem abstrak
eh lu ngoding lu!
ntar diomelin supervisor aja hahahaha
dasar ban dalem gyahahahahah

Hilda Tobing:
eh kurang ajar
lo tuh ban luar
ban dalem masih mulus
ban luar? beuh ke laut aja

Me:
ban luar bebentuk!
ban dalem abstrak hahaha putih2 gajelas
ban luar itu TOUGH!
ban dalem itu klemer2
~mabok berat

Hilda Tobing:
ban dalem apaan putih??
bodo, ban luar tough tapi lapisan yg kena EE
mampus lo
~mabok

Me:
nene kamu gila ya?
ah mau gw post ah di note fesbuk hahahahaha
ne, lo udah dikabarin tentang nonton bareng belom?
soalnya *** ***** kemaren pesen 2 tiket.. dy udah kasi tw lo lom?
cieeee NGEDET! hahahaha

Hilda Tobing:
EH MONYONG!
sialan lu ban luar

Me:
~aduh internet lagi NGEDET ya?
hahahaha
mabok parah

Hilda Tobing:
HAHAHA
kaya yg buat ngambil nasi
sodet

Me:
sodet buat masak tau!
lo ga pernah masak sih!
eh eh sodet bahasa inggerisnya apaan hayyoooo?
woy!
apaan? ga bisa jawab ya?
nyerah?
nyeraaaaaaaaaaahhhh????
jawabannya: SHOW THAT!
tunjukkan anu! hahahahahah
udah ah gw pulang dulu
dah ban dalem!
saw that

Hilda Tobing:
EH GW BARU BACA
curang!!!!!!!!
lagian saw that itu bukan tunjukkan anu tau
saw that = lihat anu (lampau)

Me:
bukan saw that tapi SHOW THAT!
SODET!
udah ah gw mau balik
deeeee ban dalem -___-

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She's totally out of her mind. Hahahaha...

even so...

I.
LOVE.
HIM.
SO.
MUCH.

sorry for the melancholy! :p

i recommend you this book!

Nightmare Academy: Open The Portal To The End of The World!


Dean Lorey was a great genius! (After Clive Barker anyway)

I keep reading this book since i finished my Anne of Avonlea last night. Although the story was so 'Harry Potter', yeah, some kind of an extraordinary school, supranatural teachings, eccentric teacher, something like that. And there's tons of typo inside. Lots of it (blame that editor.)

Never mind. Just drag yourself to the nearest bookstore now and buy this book. It's so hard to put down you know?

The story is about a gifted boy, Charlie Benjamin who joins a monster fighting academy named Nightmare Academy. He's gifted because he can open a portal to a strange world named Netherworld and let the monsters who live there enter human's world. Ok, enough for the spoiler, just read the book anyway.

Click http://www.nightmareacademy.co.uk/

this 16th june

Happy 6th birthday to my little brother Irham! :)

Last night he whispered to my left ear when i was laying on my bed, reading The City of Ember for the second times: "Hey Sis, i want a new Hot Wheels. Yellow with black stripes will do."

And then i looked deep into his eyes and say: "Irham, the most important thing of being a birthday boy is not the presents, or the foods, but the increment of your age number. You'll be a good kid, surely. And don't forget to dream, because anything can happen if you dreamt it." Then he hugged me and cried.

So, today i went to watch Angels and Demons (i know it's kinda late, very late indeed) with my best friend Ivon and my brother Hasnan. Before buying the tickets, i came to Multi first to buy my Irham's present: two Hot Wheels, one is a yellow ferrari and another one was a brown Pontiac. Then we have lunch at pizza and finally watch Angels and Demons.

Ewan McGregor (The Camerlengo) is so damn cute :)

When Irham receives his birthday presents, he hugged me and says: "thanks Sis, i love you" with a teary face.

Once again, happy birthday my littlest brother. May you have a long blessed life and all the happiness in earth. I love you so much :)

lazy saturday

3.66! Mention it, three point sixty six!

My grades are increasing this semester! Yoohooooo! Thanks for everybody who support me in many things (especially for my partner in crime, Ivon). Thanks! Thanks a lot guys!

Today I do nothing at home except watch tv, read books, play the piano, and prepare the statement necklace for gogirl's statement necklace making competition. I go to Mayestik this evening to buy laces and ribbons for my necklace. And can you imagine how shocked I am when knowing the price of one meter black ribbon was 6k? Several weeks ago, my aunt bought that ribbon only for 3k/meter -_-

And I buy a lot of foods instead of the necklace's materials hahaha.

I'm so bored, what should I do now?

finally it's here!

Yesterday i arrived at home around 8 when my cellphone was vibrating...

Geek, geek, geek... It was Ricky. The message says:

"PPL grade was finally here. Congratulations, you got an A but nobody in your group has it."

Whaaaatttt???!!!! I can't believe it! I got an A? In a programming course? Oh this is a miracle! It's just like a dream, seriously! I never thought that i'll get an A eventhough i've spent so many effort while making the systems and documents. B for me is enough. Alhamdulillah.

For your information, PPL is the most deadly course in this semester. I've spent so many sleepless nights, sweats, tears, money, all with my dream group (Ivon, Time and Ides). Actually there's one person left in my group, but i don't want to tell you. She'll ruin my mood.

Now there are 4 more to go. I hope there will be another As in my siak ng. Amin.

Good day everyone!

he said...

Life is like a sentence. Dots (.) represents the end of our life, commas (,) represents small changes in our life. And the semicolon (;) represents big giant leap in our life. So, ^;^ means all FPC member must have a smile on their face eventhough they have big giant changes in their life.

- Ricky Suryadharma

anna wintour's trademark bob

Nothing. I just envy Anna Wintour's hair. That's the real bob! I'm kinda sick of my greasy bob hair and i want to change it into Anna's. Soon, maybe.

Do you want to see my hair? No, i recommended you NOT to see my stupid hair right now. It will be your worst nightmare. Seriously.

Blablablablabla. I'm feeling unwell, so i'll cut this post as short as possible. Okay, time to go to bed now. Nighty night everyone!

One more thing:
I MISS HIM. SO MUCH.

non piangere liu

First thing first:
Sorry for the blurry pic, i know blogger sucks but i can't move to another blog provider since i made my blog layout with some kind of efforts. It says:

Latihan Kalkulus 1
.
.
.
Semua soal ditulis oleh Tieta Antaresti Riska Putri
(It also have the picture of takoneko which i like the most :))

Yuppp! That is the thing which made freaking out yesterday. I got a terrible headache but i must finish that problems no matter what. Several months ago, Ricky asked me to made some calculus problems for FPC (Fun Programming Club) exercise. Oh, i'm so honoured to be one of the problem-maker for FPC exercise :). Besides i love calculus very much so i can't say 'no' to Ricky's proposal. And then there it is, a set consist of 15 calculus problems which i made in 3 days.

I'm so glad!

and yes, i miss him so much!

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Did i told you before that i'm an opera freak? If no, let me tell you. I'm so into this opera since several months ago. The opera name was Turandot written by Giacomo Puccini. In that opera, i found one character who have the same personality as mine. The character's name was Liu. She would do anything her love, Prince Calaf who fell in love with a cold and vile Princess Turandot. This is the aria where Calaf sang to her, titled Non Piangere Liu (Don't Cry Liu):


Non piangere, Liù se in un lontano giorno
io t'ho sorriso per quel sorriso,
dolce mia fanciulla m'ascolta
il tuo signore sarà, domani,
forse, solo al mondo
Non lo lasciar...
portalo via con te
Dell'esilio, addolciscia lui le strade
Questo...questo, o mia povera Liù,
al tuo piccolo cuore che non cade
chiede colui che non sorride più.

Translation:
Do not cry, Liù
If on a long-ago day I smiled at you
For the sake of that smile,
My dear child listen to me
Your lord will be, tomorrow,
perhaps, left alone in the world
Not to leave him...
take him with you from exile,
make the journey easy for him
This... this, oh my poor Liù,
to your modest heart that does not fall
plead for the one
that doesn't smile anymore!

Soooo tearful!

i want to die

Yesterday i came back from JJS and have all my body parts ripped out from it's place (lebay). Yesss i'm so tired! But overall, i love this outing, that was a very great outing with lots great peoples, and lots of great foods too (thanks for priska and the "cooking team"). In the awards, i was honoured to be the:

TERGOKIL
TERLAWAK - first runnerup
TERLEBAY - first runnerup (nooo! i'm NOT lebay!)
TERSUPER 2006 - first runnerup

I infine sapere che lei preferisce scegliere piuttosto che quella ragazza che mi ha già tutto per il suo sacrificio. Hmmm, okay it's all right, everyone ends up alone in the end.

So many things to tell but i have so many things to do: calculus and linear algebra things. Hehehe :)

Bye then.

Oh oh oh, i accidentaly streamed this video several minutes ago and it was so great! Enjoy!


Sergei Lemeshev - Tchaikovsky's You Return To Me

bad dream

Blame tumblr. It've became my inspiration since my friend nene showed it to me. And the pictures i've posted in this blog is all belong to me. So guys, no reblog without link to this blog? Arraseo?

I've already counted the times i spent by crying under my blanket, and it was 4 times in 4 days. It means that i've became such a melancholic crybaby lately. More and more melancholic. Why did i cry? Well, that's obvious.

Yesterday night i woke up around two in the morning. I have a very terrible dream, he died. My sun, my orthogonal complement vector space, my sweet sweet sweet asymptotic function (okay, stop talking about geek things right now), he died because of taking too much antihistamine pills while doing his TA.

I woke up, reached my cellphone, and i called him several times, but there were no answer. He's asleep. So i started to hug my knees and cried until athan is coming (approximately, i had cried three and a half hours nonstop). Yes, i must pray.

After i prayed, i opened my laptop and worked on my ass ass (assistant's assignment. abbreviated.) but i can't concentrated. So i cried again till my brother came to my room (he want to asked whether i want to do jamaah praying with the entire family or not).

I suddenly told him about my dream and he laughed! Shit, he laughed loudly and said, "you're too naive, sis..." Yes yes yes, i'm naive. Naive bayesian classification :D

Geek, geek, geek, did you hear my cellphone vibrating?

Ha, it's not funny.

Moral of the story:
Don't forget to have a midnight pray before you go to sleep. Especially when you've became a lecturer assistant in two courses which have tons of worksheets and going nuts because of it.

By the way, i'm going to puncak with my friends to JALAN-JALAN SUPER. Oh, i can't barely wait!

See ya. *smooch*

imagine: earth without the sun

it's just like my world without him.
i love him more each day!

you are, my sun. you are.

i don't know, but i think i have became more irrational since you came into my life.

image from here

shitty day

The shitty day is yesterday.

Gw pulang ke pamulang gara-gara kangen banget sama adek gw plus ada sedikit masalah yang bikin gw ga betah di rumah gw yang di benda, akhirnya kemarin jam 4 sore gw pulang dari kampus.

Sekitar jam setengah 6, gw nyampe di ciputat. Buset, lo semua harus tau ya, ciputat itu gila! gw nyampe di bawah flyovernya jam setengah 6 dan baru keluar dari daerah ciputat dan ganti angkot buat ke daerah pamulang jam 8! Padahal kalo ga macet itu cuma setengah jam. Sialan.

Udah gitu tas gw jebol! Jadi kan gw pake tas yang gambarnya jeruk itu, yang blee itu. Padahal pas paginya gw udah punya feeling ga enak nih sama itu tas, tapi tas ransel gw yang pink butek itu lagi dilondri dan tas gw yang lain ada di kosan, yaudah akhirnya gw terpaksa pake tas itu. Sebelom naik angkot jurusan lebak bulus-ciputat di perempatan fatmawati, entah kenapa tuh tas mleot-mleot dan akhirnya nganga di bagian deket retsleting! Gyah, mana bawaan gw berat lagi plus gw bawa laptop dan saat itu ujan deres -_-

Jadi dalam keadaan ber-tas jebol, gw naik angkot sambil memeluk tas gw yang didalemnya ada laptop kesayangan gw yang sudah menemani gw mengoding selama dua tahun. Di dalem angkot, gw duduk di sebelah orang keturunan afrika mencurigakan (kayaknya nigeria kebon kacang) yang naik sebelom flyover, terus di sebelah orang afrika itu ada ibu-ibu gaul. Kenapa gaul? Karena dia sempet update status di facebook di dalem angkot yang kejebak macet di ciputat dan hpnya blackberry yang ditenteng oleh hampir semua anak gaul pim itu.

Gw diemin aja tuh si ibu-ibu dan si nigeria sambil meluk tas gw dengan waswas. Nah terus pas sampe ujung flyover, tuh nigeria mencurigakan turun. Nah terus beberapa menit kemudian si ibu-ibu gaul teriak jejeritan panik sambil ngeraba-raba pundak gw kantong celana kanannya tempat tadi dia naro blackberrynya.

The blackberry is gone with the wind.

Lebai. Yang bener, the blackberry is gone with the suspicious kebon kacang nigerian man. Bukannya gw nuduh ya, tadi emang tu nigeria udah mencurigakan banget, duduk mepet-mepet, terus nanya-nanya gw kuliah dimana, terus minta nomer hp gw (yang terakhir boong). Pokoknya mencurigakan deh.

Mana abis dicopet tuh ibu-ibu bilang gini:

"Ya ampun, itu blackberry kan blackberry bold yang udah saya beli susah payah dari nabung sisaan uang belanja bulanan!"

Hahaha, makanya bu, kalo mau ngegaul jangan di sebelah afrika mencurigakan. Disaut dah tu hpnya. Huhu, tapi gw kasian juga sama tuh ibu-ibu, dia nangis beneran lho. Dan akhirnya dia turun di deket unpam di kompleks sasmita jaya. Sabar ya bu...

Dan gw pun nyampe rumah jam delapan lewat lima belas menit -_- badan pegel-pegel, kepala pusing gara-gara keujanan, akhirnya semalem abis internetan gw malah tidur bukannya ngoreksi tugas.

Pesan moril:
Hati-hati sama orang afrika sok akrab yang ngajak lo ngobrol di dalem angkot. Bisa jadi itu pickpocket alias maling.

sudden mellow syndrome

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."

i'm so mad. i'm so lost.
and i'm even lost without you.
thank you, my sun.