non piangere liu

First thing first:
Sorry for the blurry pic, i know blogger sucks but i can't move to another blog provider since i made my blog layout with some kind of efforts. It says:

Latihan Kalkulus 1
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Semua soal ditulis oleh Tieta Antaresti Riska Putri
(It also have the picture of takoneko which i like the most :))

Yuppp! That is the thing which made freaking out yesterday. I got a terrible headache but i must finish that problems no matter what. Several months ago, Ricky asked me to made some calculus problems for FPC (Fun Programming Club) exercise. Oh, i'm so honoured to be one of the problem-maker for FPC exercise :). Besides i love calculus very much so i can't say 'no' to Ricky's proposal. And then there it is, a set consist of 15 calculus problems which i made in 3 days.

I'm so glad!

and yes, i miss him so much!

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Did i told you before that i'm an opera freak? If no, let me tell you. I'm so into this opera since several months ago. The opera name was Turandot written by Giacomo Puccini. In that opera, i found one character who have the same personality as mine. The character's name was Liu. She would do anything her love, Prince Calaf who fell in love with a cold and vile Princess Turandot. This is the aria where Calaf sang to her, titled Non Piangere Liu (Don't Cry Liu):


Non piangere, Liù se in un lontano giorno
io t'ho sorriso per quel sorriso,
dolce mia fanciulla m'ascolta
il tuo signore sarà, domani,
forse, solo al mondo
Non lo lasciar...
portalo via con te
Dell'esilio, addolciscia lui le strade
Questo...questo, o mia povera Liù,
al tuo piccolo cuore che non cade
chiede colui che non sorride più.

Translation:
Do not cry, Liù
If on a long-ago day I smiled at you
For the sake of that smile,
My dear child listen to me
Your lord will be, tomorrow,
perhaps, left alone in the world
Not to leave him...
take him with you from exile,
make the journey easy for him
This... this, oh my poor Liù,
to your modest heart that does not fall
plead for the one
that doesn't smile anymore!

Soooo tearful!

i want to die

Yesterday i came back from JJS and have all my body parts ripped out from it's place (lebay). Yesss i'm so tired! But overall, i love this outing, that was a very great outing with lots great peoples, and lots of great foods too (thanks for priska and the "cooking team"). In the awards, i was honoured to be the:

TERGOKIL
TERLAWAK - first runnerup
TERLEBAY - first runnerup (nooo! i'm NOT lebay!)
TERSUPER 2006 - first runnerup

I infine sapere che lei preferisce scegliere piuttosto che quella ragazza che mi ha già tutto per il suo sacrificio. Hmmm, okay it's all right, everyone ends up alone in the end.

So many things to tell but i have so many things to do: calculus and linear algebra things. Hehehe :)

Bye then.

Oh oh oh, i accidentaly streamed this video several minutes ago and it was so great! Enjoy!


Sergei Lemeshev - Tchaikovsky's You Return To Me

bad dream

Blame tumblr. It've became my inspiration since my friend nene showed it to me. And the pictures i've posted in this blog is all belong to me. So guys, no reblog without link to this blog? Arraseo?

I've already counted the times i spent by crying under my blanket, and it was 4 times in 4 days. It means that i've became such a melancholic crybaby lately. More and more melancholic. Why did i cry? Well, that's obvious.

Yesterday night i woke up around two in the morning. I have a very terrible dream, he died. My sun, my orthogonal complement vector space, my sweet sweet sweet asymptotic function (okay, stop talking about geek things right now), he died because of taking too much antihistamine pills while doing his TA.

I woke up, reached my cellphone, and i called him several times, but there were no answer. He's asleep. So i started to hug my knees and cried until athan is coming (approximately, i had cried three and a half hours nonstop). Yes, i must pray.

After i prayed, i opened my laptop and worked on my ass ass (assistant's assignment. abbreviated.) but i can't concentrated. So i cried again till my brother came to my room (he want to asked whether i want to do jamaah praying with the entire family or not).

I suddenly told him about my dream and he laughed! Shit, he laughed loudly and said, "you're too naive, sis..." Yes yes yes, i'm naive. Naive bayesian classification :D

Geek, geek, geek, did you hear my cellphone vibrating?

Ha, it's not funny.

Moral of the story:
Don't forget to have a midnight pray before you go to sleep. Especially when you've became a lecturer assistant in two courses which have tons of worksheets and going nuts because of it.

By the way, i'm going to puncak with my friends to JALAN-JALAN SUPER. Oh, i can't barely wait!

See ya. *smooch*

imagine: earth without the sun

it's just like my world without him.
i love him more each day!

you are, my sun. you are.

i don't know, but i think i have became more irrational since you came into my life.

image from here

shitty day

The shitty day is yesterday.

Gw pulang ke pamulang gara-gara kangen banget sama adek gw plus ada sedikit masalah yang bikin gw ga betah di rumah gw yang di benda, akhirnya kemarin jam 4 sore gw pulang dari kampus.

Sekitar jam setengah 6, gw nyampe di ciputat. Buset, lo semua harus tau ya, ciputat itu gila! gw nyampe di bawah flyovernya jam setengah 6 dan baru keluar dari daerah ciputat dan ganti angkot buat ke daerah pamulang jam 8! Padahal kalo ga macet itu cuma setengah jam. Sialan.

Udah gitu tas gw jebol! Jadi kan gw pake tas yang gambarnya jeruk itu, yang blee itu. Padahal pas paginya gw udah punya feeling ga enak nih sama itu tas, tapi tas ransel gw yang pink butek itu lagi dilondri dan tas gw yang lain ada di kosan, yaudah akhirnya gw terpaksa pake tas itu. Sebelom naik angkot jurusan lebak bulus-ciputat di perempatan fatmawati, entah kenapa tuh tas mleot-mleot dan akhirnya nganga di bagian deket retsleting! Gyah, mana bawaan gw berat lagi plus gw bawa laptop dan saat itu ujan deres -_-

Jadi dalam keadaan ber-tas jebol, gw naik angkot sambil memeluk tas gw yang didalemnya ada laptop kesayangan gw yang sudah menemani gw mengoding selama dua tahun. Di dalem angkot, gw duduk di sebelah orang keturunan afrika mencurigakan (kayaknya nigeria kebon kacang) yang naik sebelom flyover, terus di sebelah orang afrika itu ada ibu-ibu gaul. Kenapa gaul? Karena dia sempet update status di facebook di dalem angkot yang kejebak macet di ciputat dan hpnya blackberry yang ditenteng oleh hampir semua anak gaul pim itu.

Gw diemin aja tuh si ibu-ibu dan si nigeria sambil meluk tas gw dengan waswas. Nah terus pas sampe ujung flyover, tuh nigeria mencurigakan turun. Nah terus beberapa menit kemudian si ibu-ibu gaul teriak jejeritan panik sambil ngeraba-raba pundak gw kantong celana kanannya tempat tadi dia naro blackberrynya.

The blackberry is gone with the wind.

Lebai. Yang bener, the blackberry is gone with the suspicious kebon kacang nigerian man. Bukannya gw nuduh ya, tadi emang tu nigeria udah mencurigakan banget, duduk mepet-mepet, terus nanya-nanya gw kuliah dimana, terus minta nomer hp gw (yang terakhir boong). Pokoknya mencurigakan deh.

Mana abis dicopet tuh ibu-ibu bilang gini:

"Ya ampun, itu blackberry kan blackberry bold yang udah saya beli susah payah dari nabung sisaan uang belanja bulanan!"

Hahaha, makanya bu, kalo mau ngegaul jangan di sebelah afrika mencurigakan. Disaut dah tu hpnya. Huhu, tapi gw kasian juga sama tuh ibu-ibu, dia nangis beneran lho. Dan akhirnya dia turun di deket unpam di kompleks sasmita jaya. Sabar ya bu...

Dan gw pun nyampe rumah jam delapan lewat lima belas menit -_- badan pegel-pegel, kepala pusing gara-gara keujanan, akhirnya semalem abis internetan gw malah tidur bukannya ngoreksi tugas.

Pesan moril:
Hati-hati sama orang afrika sok akrab yang ngajak lo ngobrol di dalem angkot. Bisa jadi itu pickpocket alias maling.

sudden mellow syndrome

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."

i'm so mad. i'm so lost.
and i'm even lost without you.
thank you, my sun.